I Guess I'm a Kid

This is just something amusing to me.  I go for radiation every day (on my brain), and during their radiation parts, I asked them to tell me to hold my breath at the times it was going to start because I'd smell this really bad smell that I've never smelled anywhere, so I figured things'd be much better if I held my breath.

At the beginning I asked the radiologists if they weren't bothered having to deal with that smell everyday at work.  They told me there was no smell.  Any smell I could smell was happening in my head, and there was nothing for them ever to smell.  Ok.  Didn't know that.  They told me that not too many people smelled something bad and so they didn't tell a lot of people to hold their breaths.

Recently they asked me if I was still smelling anything and I said yes... keep telling me when to hold.  Then they started to tell me that the only people they'd ever had report the smell, was kids.  Other adults with the same experience weren't smelling anything, but kids who had it, also smelled something bad.

That was amazing to me - especially at age 54.  I was experiencing what kids experience.  Made me have to look at myself to think of whether or not my behaviour is like a kid's behaviour.  I'm saying no, hope I seem like the old adult that I am.  So amazing.

Does Aspartame Cause Cancer?

I was trying to think of how I (all of a sudden) had brain cancer.  The doctors said they didn't know how or when I got it (it was determined July 29, 2011).  When I looked it up online, the only reason I found was the use of aspartame because most answers everywhere also said they didn't know the cause.

I read everything about cancer+aspartame, mostly because I used aspartame for at least 30 years as sweeteners in my coffee so that I would have it with fewer calories than sugar.  When I was younger and actually drank pop, I also had diet pop only, and over the recent years where I became addicted to 'breath-freshening' Excel gum, found it was made with aspartame.  By the way, I went looking for non-aspartame gum recently and there was none - all gum was made with aspartame.

If you search online for details on aspartame, most of what you find (especially from aspartame creators) will say that cancer 'may' have been found in researching rats - but not people.  If you find other websites, you'll find that they think it's the cause of brain cancer.

Reality is that I've been told by the doctors that I will live for 15 months.  15 months from when, I don't know.  Maybe it means after chemo and radiation have finished?  I have the malignant glioma, Level IV type in my temporal lobe.  In the current time, I figured I'd quit aspartame so, hopefully, it wouldn't make me any more cancerous.

Since I couldn't like my coffee black, I switched from aspartame to Xylitol, which, as I've read, is supposed to be healthy, not like aspartame.  I like the idea because it's fewer calories than sugar (which I've always avoided because I didn't want to gain weight).  The good thing about xylitol seems to be that you can also order gum made with it.  I am going to do this to see if it provides a gum I'll be happy enough to chew on (meaning not overly rough chewing and flavours that last a bit long).  It would be good if something worked for me at preventing the growth I think they'll be finding a month after my current radiation has finished.

Posts will be Different

Because in my jackson jewellery blog I used to post mostly about jewellery I was working on, this blog will seem different.  I figured that since my life has changed quite a bit since July 29th, I have quite a few things to post about, such as:

• Jewellery I'm making or have made
• What my status with brain cancer is like at the time
• Incidences or boredom that are occuring in my life at that time
• Anything else I think of on that date

I suppose it bothers me that this blog will look like anything you can set up at blogger.com rather than something I have created myself since I'm also a website designer/maker.  I guess I'll have to play with whatever their options and functions are here to come up with something endearing to me.

So I can guess that my first posts will have a lot to do with my brain cancer, at least just to tell everyone what's happening with me.  So get ready :)

My Personal Sites were Ruined by Virus

I have no idea how anybody got into adding a virus or who did it and why, but all the websites that I owned and were all covered under a main setting, then had domains as sub-folders, all were hit with this virus, which meant that I couldn't fix them because the backup savings were too soon before that and had it also.

So I just had to delete every website of mine, which pissed me off overly since I had no idea what the virus was or how to fix it.

Remembering that I had a blogger site, I decided that this was the answer - and the safest thing for me to do - there's no way I can get a virus because I'm not sponsoring it, blogger is.  Thank you blogger, it's the only way I got back online about anything.

There's a whole bunch of updates that I have to write about, but I thought I should let this be known first, so I did.

Why is this here?

My gmail account kept asking me for my blog, which is at http://www.jacksonjewellery.com/blog, but wouldn't post it unless it was a blogger account, so I created a blogger account.

While I think blogger's a good tool for those people who don't actually know how to create websites, I'm not one of those people.  I created a website to sell my jewellery, and a blog to talk about anything jewellery related.  I won't mention how many other websites I have too since that's not what this is for.

Anyway, now google can have a blogger blog for Jackson Jewellery.